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Subject:And then I asked, "Have you ever felt abandoned?"
Time:11:13 pm
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Ha, wow I slept at Chris's house last night. It was fun, I guess? I mean, his bed is comfortable..and NO..NOTHING (at all) happened..just, fell asleep. But anyway..


I'm going to my gramma's house on Friday, what fun. I'll be haning out with Alicyn, my gramma and my grandpa, and my crrrazy uncle Tom ;). Probably seeing my Haha, oh yes, what fun. Chris will be going away next week, so I won't be missing TOO much time with him..but I'll miss him so much when I'm gone..It's our year anniversary on Wednesday...

I really want to go to Olive Garden right now..how quirky.
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Subject:Wizzer
Time:12:57 am
Current Mood:contentcontent
So it's summer. I've been spending forever with Chris, as always. We've done a lot this summer..gone to his uncle's for the 4th, camping, and tomorrow I'll be with him again on another family excursion, fun fun.
We had so many classes together for next year, but then his mom made him take a class and now all we have together is lunch, Yes, I'll most likely take the same class he did and everything will be fine..but I'm still worried.

What's past is past, no need to mention it. Although, I might if I could remember it...

It's the middle of July, and summer is swiftly passing by.

Wow, I really didn't want to make that rhyme, how weird. In a while I'll be going to my gramma's..which means I gain about 10 pounds of ice cream..Hm, I learned how to play trombone over summer..
I started re-reading the Harry Potter series because everyone knows he's the coolest! (yap.)

Well, I'll be off to bed soon..
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Subject:Girl Scout cookies are really good..
Time:12:17 pm
Current Mood:lovedsexy
Well, today is the last day of spring break..and so far I've managed to clean my room. It's already 12:30 and that's all I've done..clean. Yeah, I'm lame. I wanted to go bowling with Chris buuuut he isn't here yet and that means we probably won't go. Lazy bum.

So over spring break I went to my gramma's and went shopping. Then I came home and hung out with Chris..fun fun. I guess going back to school won't be that bad, I mean I have nothing to do here anyway. I just don't want to have to wake up so eeearly again. That sucks.

Chris and I have been going out for nearly eight and a half months. Wow. He's my hero.

Ehh..I guess I'm gonna go make my bed and probably watch T.V. until Christopher gets his but over here. Then we'll either go skating or hopefully bowling. Most likely though, we'll laze around and play video games...
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Subject:Ha..
Time:08:53 pm
Current Mood:pleasedpleased
Wow it's been awhile. I don't care enough to talk about the past two months. They've been great, that's it. So it's spring break..which in my book is good for 2 things: No school, more sleep. Yeah. I just got back from a show..and it's great because I've got that stupid annoying ringing sound in my ears now. It was fun though, can't complain. Ha..yeah so I'm gonna go do something else now..like sleep or something.


*Woah. You know, you only burn my friendships.*
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Subject:Haha..have fun
Time:05:55 pm
Current Mood:weirdweird
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Are we close?
[13] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14] Do you wish I was cooler?
[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[17] Am I loveable?
[18] How long have you known me?
[19] Describe me in one word.
[20] What was your first impression?
[21] Do you still think that way about me now?
[22] What do you think my weakness is?
[23] Do you think I'll get married?
[24] What about me makes you happy?
[25] What about me makes you sad?
[26] What reminds you of me?
[27] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30] Do you think I would kill someone?
[31] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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Subject:Cuz now, It's all that I wanted
Time:09:48 pm
Current Mood:depresseddepressed
New Year's Eve. It's not that I'm not doing anything special. It's not that I'm by myself. It's that I don't care that's really bugging me. I just really want to go to sleep right now but I won't because..I'm not that lame.
And of course I wish Chris was here, but now he's at his mom's house..so pretty much, he's dead. I haven't talked to him since this morning, and I probably won't talk to him until Monday. I miss him.....






No tear will give me justice..
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Subject:This is a Call
Time:12:11 am
Current Mood:hyperHYPERRR
She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong, but she still sleeps with her light on, and she acts like It's all right on, as she smiles again her mother lies there sick with cancer, and her friends don't understand her, she's a question without answers, who feels like falling apart. She knows, she's so much more than worthless, but she needs to find her purpose, she wonders what she did to deserve this and..

She's calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out, ' Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you, and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out, I'm asking you, to show me what this life is all about.

He tells everyone a story, because he feels his life is boring, and he fights so you won't ignore him, because that's his biggest fear, and he cries, but you'll rarely see him do it. He loves, but he's scared to use it. So he hides behind the music, cause he likes it that way. He knows, He's so much more than worthless, he needs to find the surface, because he's starting to get nervous.

He's calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out, ' Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you, and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out, I'm asking you, to show me what this life is all about.

Have you ever felt this way before? 'cause I don't wanna hide here anymore. Take me to place where nothing's wrong and thanks for coming, shut the door. They say someone out there sees us, Well if you're real then save me Jesus, cause I've been here for far too long. I wasn't meant to feel alone.

And now I'm calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out, 'Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out
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Time:09:05 pm
Current Mood:thoughtfulthoughtful
Sometimes feelings can be explained through words...

Other times, they can be shown. Some people can only show their emotions through writing songs and poems. Other people hide their true thoughts because they're scared or embarrassed. Sometimes feelings are confusing, and they can't be understood. And sometimes what you feel is just so obvious that you don't want to believe it. Sometimes we think we feel things only because we want so badly for it to be true, and sometimes we just don't want it to be true. Sometimes you wish you never said the things you've said because you thought you meant them, and sometimes you wish you'd said things that you didn't. Sometimes you don't know how to say the things you want and then say something you didn't want to. Sometimes you don't know how something will sound until you've said it, and then wish you hadn't. Sometimes you wish you were someone else, some where else far away. Sometimes you see someone you don't know and wonder if they're happy..or sad. Sometimes you wonder what their life is like and then realize that you will never know. Sometimes you realize how small and insignificant you are, and then realize that everyone is. Sometimes you can't stop talking.





...and sometimes there is just nothing to say.
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Subject:So here's your holiday..
Time:11:12 pm
Current Mood:lovedloved
Today is Christmas.

(A little heads-up, you're gonna skip through this whole entry unless one of the following applies to you: A. You're Chris and actually care about every possible thing I type, say, or do..no matter of it's stupidity or insignificance. B. You've had amnesia and feel the need to read everyone's livejournal to try and jar your memeory back to normal.. or C. You are one pathetic piece of shit who either needs to get off your big ass, or for the love of all that is good and decent to find a better bloody hobby.)

I woke up at approximately 7:06 and strolled out into the living room to begin gift opening. You might think, "Gee, Mandy sure doesn't get up that early in the morning normally, I wonder what could have sprung her from her wonderful sleep." Or you might not care. Annnyway..Mike's kids were here and they were really excited about SANTA..so we started opening our presents a tad early.

I opened up two or three things..and they were really nice, but I only wanted to get one thing this Christmas..The 10th Kingdom DVD. You'll have to understand that to me, this movie isn't just a movie. I love it. (CAUTION::: long and droning story rapidly approching, Suggested end of entry.)
When I was in 4th grade, it was a television series that was on for two weeks..and I watched a few of the episodes, but not all of it. Anyway, awhile went by and I had totally forgotten about this particularlly excellent piece of work. Then one day, I was just sitting and thinking and I suddenly thought about The 10th Kingdom. I needed to see it..I needed to read it..I just had to have it! (The 10th Kingdom..original author is Kathryn Wesley..more recently was made into a movie by Hallmark and NBC...anyway) Thankfully, it was summer and I was at my grandparent's house. We drove to three different libraries and none of them carried the book. Silly me went online and looked at the Milwaukee County Library Data Base, and only one library had it. We drove there and I rented the book for a week. As a soon-to-become eigth grader, I managed to read the book a mere four times before having to return it. I absolutely love it. After I rented it..The 10th Kingdom was out of my mind once again.....until around October of this year. I started thinking about it and how magically delicious it is and I just needed to see the movie. (I'm sure by now you're wondering how the hell this ties in to Christmas..) I told everyone in my family that if I didn't OR did get the book or DVD for Christmas I would cry..and at my grandma's house..my mom and Mike were like "Be ready for a let down..really" So I started crying. Over a book. A silly stupid old book that no one knows or cares about.

Oh, but it isn't silly..it isn't stupid..

So, I woke up as I've previously mentioned, at 7:06, I wasn't really looking forward to gifts. I started to unwrap a rather small gift..wondering why everyone was watching me open it. I numbly realized that..my mom had gotten me my favorite movie. I was finally holding The 10th Kingdom and all it's magic in my hand..and yes, I started crying. I started crying because I recieved this movie. Of course I didn't want to open anymore presents and promply pressed my prized posession into the DVD player. I watched all 7ish hours of the movie without getting up a single time. Well, that's a little fib. My parents decided to vacuum and I had to pause the movie. At this time, I went online and saw a lovely message from Chris and decided to call him. It was wonderful hearing his voice. Anyway, after the movie I got online again and saw him..he told me that he could come over and spend some time with me. I hadn't seen him since Monday, so I was thrilled. He came over oh, around 7ish and..well..and then he was over. (Ha...ha...)At around 9..we started to watch The 10th Kingdom together. He said that he liked it and wanted to finish it at his house..I (regretably) let him take it and now I want it back oh so badly. I miss all the characters! Prince Wendell and Wolf and Virginia and Tony and believe it or not the Trolls and the Queen and the Huntsman......Ha..listen to me..I really am a nerd lol.

Anyway, so far during break I've also traded my baby blue guitar for a black and red one. I like it better I suppose..the pick-ups are different and I like them more..but oh well. For some reason..I really want to get out a coloring book and just color every single page in it.

I doubt you can realize how much you miss someone until you haven't had them for awhile..and then suddenly have them again. I knew that I missed Chris...but I didn't really know how much until I saw him. It's horrible being away from him all this time..really. I love him so much.




I haven't written in awhile..A thousand appologies for the extensive entry.
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Subject:I like the kids who fight against how they were brought up...
Time:03:48 pm
Current Mood:mischievousmischievous
So... Ha, I'm at school. Stupid admin. blocked every other fun site, so I suppose I'll just write in my wonderful livejournal! Yesterday was...well, it was yesterday and it's over with now. So I woke up at 9 and went to the grocery store with my mother. She says that we have to go to my uncle's birthday party..and I told her I WASN'T going unless Chris could go because I had other stuff that I needed to do and plus I NEVER get to see him...So, I invited him over and he was going to come with me. Well, we procrastinated to leave until around 2 and then I told my parents I wasn't going because Chris had to be back by his mom for 6. Of course, he didn't want to call her to ask her if he could stay later, and my mom didn't want to "deal" with her..as always. So Chris couldn't go. And they made me go.

Why? I don't have A fucking clue why they made me go..it was STUPID!

Whatever that's over with now. I stayed up until 2 this morning and I peirced my ear three times lol..so now I have 9 peircings in my ears haha..just need some earings now....:D












Why do we dream if our thoughts mean nothing...
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